Thursday, April 03, 2014
goodbye;
Wow its been a while since I updated my blog.. Been so busy with growing up lately that ive been neglecting this blog. Its been a year of ups and downs for me. Well at least I finally graduated and finally gotten out of my undergraduate degree but why am I back studying masters??? Sometimes I still wonder if I ever made the right decision to stay back in Australia to continue this studying run. I mean I really do love being in Australia compared to back home but this year feels very much more different compared to last year. In terms of the number of friends left here, the course I am taking (don't get me wrong its not that bad, in fact its actually interesting), the lifestyle. To me its like starting all over again as how I did in my first year just that its so much harder to make friends nowadays. Getting old and anti social .. bahaha...
Anyways hopefully for this new year, I would be able to improve myself in terms of losing weight again and also photography skills.. I should really try to get better at taking people pictures, its so much more interesting and lucrative :P .. Then again if I have the models and the time would that only be able to materialize. I have to try to get into the groove of being hardworking to go all over the place to take interesting shots and edit them. I get so lazy sometimes. Hmm.. talking about editing.. I think I still am yet to edit my NZ photos.. gahh!!!! SO many photos!!! Hopefully I have the time to do it. Need to work and study and placements (teaching small kids) feels like something I wouldn't do really but we will see how it goes.
People have also been asking me why I don't have any interests in most girls (NO im not gay), its just that I have always been interested in one girl. The one girl that I have known since my undergraduate years, that one girl that has rejected me and friendzoned me for that many years. I just don't want to try again you know, just don't want to hurt the current friendship that we have got there. I have had a few friends tell me off why I still want to stick to someone who just want to be friends
but she just feels special to me. Her character, her interests, her cuteness were always the main reason why I liked her. Sometimes I really want to be myself but I get so caught up with trying not to make mistakes that I end up saying or doing things that I think could have been dumb.. Gahh.... I really don't know.. is this an obsession??? I guess she will just only be my dream girl.
Alright I guess I should come back here from time to time to update this and rant all my thoughts rather than keep it in and feel frustrated sometimes.. Hopefully the pics I post here will get more attentions. Anyways time to sign off... :)
ilovedyou;
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