Wednesday, April 09, 2008
goodbye;
MY VERDICT
After thinking for a long time and after watching a few episodes of Friends.... i have made my decision... and i still love xin nee... my first ex... can find another one.. im sure she got a lot of admirers.. she dont need me.. i know xin nee doesnt need me too.. but if what they say about only our true love will ever make us the happiest... i believe that xin nee is the one... I am truly the most happiest when im with her... and i have never felt the same way with other girls... not even with girls that i have crushes on... she made me the happiest.. she thought me alot of things.. she gave me life and she helped me to have great friends today... She might never read this...but im making it publicly that i love tan xin nee or also known as sherine and no matter how i try and she might never love me anymore... but i will always be waiting for the day that the happiest day will come back again... the day where my lucky star will give me back life to love and be myself... People have called me stupid for still clinging on to her, but does that mean love is stupid? i can forget other girls if i want to.. but xin nee is just a particular girl i cannot give up or not love anymore, maybe i am really stupid, maybe just too stupid to want to be with the girl i want to be with for the rest of my life? to want to take care until im old? or maybe im just tooo stupid to love anybody.... the facebook application was right... I AM CHANDLER BING in real life... and xin nee.. is my monica... and i love her soo much.. and i want to spend the rest of my life with her even if it takes an eternity to get her back... Ill do anything from climbing the highest mountains to swim the deepest seas... not only is my gut feeling telling me this.. but god is as well... I truly truly love her... and with my first ex... even when i was with her.. i never felt that special feeling... it was all normal... no heart beating fast and slow... but with xin nee.. my heart beats fast and slow at the same time....when i walk with her and when im with her...it makes me wish that it will last forever and never stop...when she talks... all i hear is her voice.... When she laughs....it makes my day full of meaning and joy... and when she cries..... it makes me cry... when she feels down or sad... i also feel down and sad and always makes me want to be by her side more and more everyday..... and everytime i receive something from her... its like receiving treasures that man will never get in their lives....i still do feel that way after the break up... and i miss the konyakun jellies she makes.... they are delicious.. T.T.... i dont need other food except for those jellies....
I hope you all the readers out there... never let ur loved one go just because of some stupid quarrel or reasons... always think of the happiest times u all have had together and realize the true love in your relationship... i screwed my chance.. now to u all still in a relationship... be true to urself... and to ur partner.. and love each other if u think that is ur one true love and u feel happiest to be with....... There will always be trials and hardship in your relationship where it can destroy relationships at times.. but thats what life is about.. going through this trials and solving it together with ur partner... its never easy especially after a few years together or ur in a different country.... never let ur cherished one go just like that cause u will regret this for the rest of ur life like i am now... the mistakes that i have made... which i thought was for the right reasons... ended up being every wrong reason and i couldnt get past that hurdle.. instead of passing it.. i fell... and i never got back up... so please.. never get frustrated or bored with ur relationship if u truly love that person... like i said.. always go back to the happiest times or even what ur partner did to make u feel the love for him/ her... just cherish ur relationship.. Try to solve it if u have problems, to me.. if u really love that person, there is always a way to solve the problems we face, its just whether u want to or not... quarrels will come and go but the person u truly love comes only once in lifetime...
jasonk signing off.... have a nice day!!.. :)
After thinking for a long time and after watching a few episodes of Friends.... i have made my decision... and i still love xin nee... my first ex... can find another one.. im sure she got a lot of admirers.. she dont need me.. i know xin nee doesnt need me too.. but if what they say about only our true love will ever make us the happiest... i believe that xin nee is the one... I am truly the most happiest when im with her... and i have never felt the same way with other girls... not even with girls that i have crushes on... she made me the happiest.. she thought me alot of things.. she gave me life and she helped me to have great friends today... She might never read this...but im making it publicly that i love tan xin nee or also known as sherine and no matter how i try and she might never love me anymore... but i will always be waiting for the day that the happiest day will come back again... the day where my lucky star will give me back life to love and be myself... People have called me stupid for still clinging on to her, but does that mean love is stupid? i can forget other girls if i want to.. but xin nee is just a particular girl i cannot give up or not love anymore, maybe i am really stupid, maybe just too stupid to want to be with the girl i want to be with for the rest of my life? to want to take care until im old? or maybe im just tooo stupid to love anybody.... the facebook application was right... I AM CHANDLER BING in real life... and xin nee.. is my monica... and i love her soo much.. and i want to spend the rest of my life with her even if it takes an eternity to get her back... Ill do anything from climbing the highest mountains to swim the deepest seas... not only is my gut feeling telling me this.. but god is as well... I truly truly love her... and with my first ex... even when i was with her.. i never felt that special feeling... it was all normal... no heart beating fast and slow... but with xin nee.. my heart beats fast and slow at the same time....when i walk with her and when im with her...it makes me wish that it will last forever and never stop...when she talks... all i hear is her voice.... When she laughs....it makes my day full of meaning and joy... and when she cries..... it makes me cry... when she feels down or sad... i also feel down and sad and always makes me want to be by her side more and more everyday..... and everytime i receive something from her... its like receiving treasures that man will never get in their lives....i still do feel that way after the break up... and i miss the konyakun jellies she makes.... they are delicious.. T.T.... i dont need other food except for those jellies....
I hope you all the readers out there... never let ur loved one go just because of some stupid quarrel or reasons... always think of the happiest times u all have had together and realize the true love in your relationship... i screwed my chance.. now to u all still in a relationship... be true to urself... and to ur partner.. and love each other if u think that is ur one true love and u feel happiest to be with....... There will always be trials and hardship in your relationship where it can destroy relationships at times.. but thats what life is about.. going through this trials and solving it together with ur partner... its never easy especially after a few years together or ur in a different country.... never let ur cherished one go just like that cause u will regret this for the rest of ur life like i am now... the mistakes that i have made... which i thought was for the right reasons... ended up being every wrong reason and i couldnt get past that hurdle.. instead of passing it.. i fell... and i never got back up... so please.. never get frustrated or bored with ur relationship if u truly love that person... like i said.. always go back to the happiest times or even what ur partner did to make u feel the love for him/ her... just cherish ur relationship.. Try to solve it if u have problems, to me.. if u really love that person, there is always a way to solve the problems we face, its just whether u want to or not... quarrels will come and go but the person u truly love comes only once in lifetime...
jasonk signing off.... have a nice day!!.. :)
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