IN A DILEMMA!!!
Hey everybody.. holidays are almost at the end… suffering with assignments… pheww… glad that its almost done.. although got the second wave coming very soon but at least.. I managed to survive the first one… Its amazing how we have holidays but it never feels like we have one. Hmm.. oh well.. guess that’s studying life... never fun until its over. Anywayz.. hope everybody is doing well wherever u are… just email me to let me know everybody’s condition.. miss most of u all especially the ones back in
Sometimes I wonder why almost everybody kind of changes when they have a transition from college to uni… although not a significant change but there will always be a change that is noticeable.. I have studied many of my friends and I really see the difference… guess the person is maturing?? Or because of friend’s influence that they change to the kind their group wants them to be?? Or could it be.. they just are that way but never showed their characteristics before? Maybe relationships? Ive always wondered and guess I need to study people more to find out… Whatever it is.. friends will always be friends and the most important thing is to never forget about them.. and always be happy no matter what.. Its amazing how a smile can change a person’s day just like that.. Everybody has problems to face in life and we will always face them everyday from decision making problems to friendship problems to studying problems to the even occasional relationship problems.. but one thing that is rarely done or really felt by a person is the true happiness inside us.. that’s why if we just give a person a smile, it will always help, even tho it might be little help but as it accumulates…a smile goes a long way to help us feel that happiness inside us.. think about it.. =)
Story aside, I just have had a tiring and painful weekend.. Tiring from the lack of sleep… painful… from the injury that I had since before the holidays and also the pain of doing assignments when we were suppose to party.. and yet.. I still have not finished all of them .. sad as it is.. its all for passing this stupid course.. which I took for some particular reason.. but since that reason is no more.. im starting to think that this course sucks… LOL.. Oh well… wat to do.. life sucks.. haha.. Well.. I have been having sleepless nights even from January and u know why? Cause I still dream of my ex, xin nee.. even tho im over her and have already moved on… I am still not sure whether this dreams that I am having is a sign from God or just my conscience trying to help me not forget her.. I might be going crazy.. OH NO!!! Well.. no loss anyways.. hehe..
Then suddenly while having all this crappy problems… one more came up.. my first ex contacted me… and said she still likes me… hmm….. I was in a freaking dilemma.. it’s a long story with my first ex… not going to talk about it.. but she did the wrong things.. and it ended.. Anywayz.. after she told me this.. I just kept quite and I forgave her later and we chatted... wonder how she got my phone number tho… Lolz… but slowly talked about the happy times.. the sad times… talked crap.. and then suddenly she ask whether if we had another chance… and I froze… she said she could be coming to aussy…don’t know when… but if she does.. she wants to meet up and well.. I was still frozen.. I wasn’t ready … i just told her ill think about it.. and later we just chatted normally again…. And said our goodbyes and hanged up… I couldn’t sleep the whole night thinking about it( Another sleepless night)… and I still don’t have an answer… I am just not stable now to go back to any past relationships… maybe I should tell her not yet… HOW LA??? Maybe watching porn might help.. hehe… NoNoNo… I am not pornson khaw… im Jason khaw.. I no watchy porno…maybe watchy hentai.. hehe… NoNoNo..(*slams head on wall*)… Grr… but come to think of it.. im single again… and I need a gf… maybe there is a chance… JUST MAYBE… haizz… give me peace….. I want peace!!! (*shoots self with hand made gun*)… DAMN… no gun powder.. bullet cannot come out… HOW!!!!!.... oh well.. better concentrate with my assignments first.. think about it later.. anywayz.. its late here already.. time to sleep.. nights everyone and HAVE A NICE DAY!!!
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